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rosengirlIt finally hit me last night, I went to bed and started crying.
In a few hours, Luke and Noah will be onscreen together for the last time.
I didn't even realize how much it affected me until last night. It's not the show ending, I couldn't care less about that badly written mess of a show and I never really fell for it, it's seing a part of what made those characters gone forever. It's not even really over, at all. The show is just a tiny portion of what makes Luke and Noah to me.
The thing is, I only got into them a little less than a year ago but they've become such an important part of my life that I feel like I've been in this fandom for years and years. 2010 has been a really awful year irl for me and I really had two things to hold on to, my friends and this. It was literally my happy place. And yes, I know it's been a tough year for the Nuke fandom as well with the way the pairing was treated onscreen and the endless wank, but it never weakened the positive effect Luke and Noah had on my life. Which proves that the show is not that important in itself.
However, it's still thanks to it that I discovered Luke and Noah in the first place (well Andy's channel, eh) so in that respect it's hard to let go. When I started watching it, I fell almost instantly in love with one Luke Snyder, I loved him so much that I went back and watched all of his story before Noah came into the picture (I'm doing that again right now). My love for Noah matured, it wasn't love at first sight, like it had been with Luke but in the end it became just as strong. I wasn't gripped by the ridiculous plots or the fake looking sets, of course, what really made me fall so hard for them was Van and Jake's brilliant portrayal and incredible chemistry, it's what really makes Luke and Noah real for me and how I became so invested in their story.
Van Hansis and Jake Silbermann have such a special place in my heart. I have admired and squeed over countless of actors over the years, but my love for those two is somewhat completely different. I can't really explain it. Of course, I do admire them for what they do but it goes beyond that. I think it's partly due to the way they are so close to their fanbase. It's the way they are so accessible and seem so genuine with us. They are fantastic human beings and I feel blessed to have been lucky enough to meet them this year. I will go on supporting them and following their careers well after the show's over.
What I will mourn after today's episode is not seing them play those characters ever again.
The characters will live on thanks to the fandom. For one thing, the amazing stories written in this fandom are also, if not more, responsible for my obsession with the pairing and they're just so good at improving and fixing every single problem the show had. Like the way Noah was never really allowed to be a character in his own right. I love how the fandom took what was given in canon and really ran with it, really made him as complex and interesting as he deserved to be all along.
Incredible authors such as Ella, Rachel and Robin are the reason why I know that these characters are in safe hands (actually, in safer hands than with the sucky writers of the show) so I couldn't be less worried about Luke and Noah's future.
It's so not over. I'll probably be a mess after today's episode but I know that I still have many many things to look forward to.
I will end with Yael's amazing fanvid which made us all bawl our eyes out yesterday :
What was best.
We'll get through this, guys *group hug with my dear nukies*
In a few hours, Luke and Noah will be onscreen together for the last time.
I didn't even realize how much it affected me until last night. It's not the show ending, I couldn't care less about that badly written mess of a show and I never really fell for it, it's seing a part of what made those characters gone forever. It's not even really over, at all. The show is just a tiny portion of what makes Luke and Noah to me.
The thing is, I only got into them a little less than a year ago but they've become such an important part of my life that I feel like I've been in this fandom for years and years. 2010 has been a really awful year irl for me and I really had two things to hold on to, my friends and this. It was literally my happy place. And yes, I know it's been a tough year for the Nuke fandom as well with the way the pairing was treated onscreen and the endless wank, but it never weakened the positive effect Luke and Noah had on my life. Which proves that the show is not that important in itself.
However, it's still thanks to it that I discovered Luke and Noah in the first place (well Andy's channel, eh) so in that respect it's hard to let go. When I started watching it, I fell almost instantly in love with one Luke Snyder, I loved him so much that I went back and watched all of his story before Noah came into the picture (I'm doing that again right now). My love for Noah matured, it wasn't love at first sight, like it had been with Luke but in the end it became just as strong. I wasn't gripped by the ridiculous plots or the fake looking sets, of course, what really made me fall so hard for them was Van and Jake's brilliant portrayal and incredible chemistry, it's what really makes Luke and Noah real for me and how I became so invested in their story.
Van Hansis and Jake Silbermann have such a special place in my heart. I have admired and squeed over countless of actors over the years, but my love for those two is somewhat completely different. I can't really explain it. Of course, I do admire them for what they do but it goes beyond that. I think it's partly due to the way they are so close to their fanbase. It's the way they are so accessible and seem so genuine with us. They are fantastic human beings and I feel blessed to have been lucky enough to meet them this year. I will go on supporting them and following their careers well after the show's over.
What I will mourn after today's episode is not seing them play those characters ever again.
The characters will live on thanks to the fandom. For one thing, the amazing stories written in this fandom are also, if not more, responsible for my obsession with the pairing and they're just so good at improving and fixing every single problem the show had. Like the way Noah was never really allowed to be a character in his own right. I love how the fandom took what was given in canon and really ran with it, really made him as complex and interesting as he deserved to be all along.
Incredible authors such as Ella, Rachel and Robin are the reason why I know that these characters are in safe hands (actually, in safer hands than with the sucky writers of the show) so I couldn't be less worried about Luke and Noah's future.
It's so not over. I'll probably be a mess after today's episode but I know that I still have many many things to look forward to.
I will end with Yael's amazing fanvid which made us all bawl our eyes out yesterday :
What was best.
We'll get through this, guys *group hug with my dear nukies*
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on 2010-09-16 05:06 pm (UTC)(And aw wow, thanks for the shoutout, and putting me with two amazing writers!!)
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on 2010-09-16 07:57 pm (UTC)(darling, *please* you absolutely deserve that shoutout *currently killed by Frames on a daily basis*)
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on 2010-09-17 10:43 am (UTC)I was left somewhat satisfied with the end because, yes, it's so open ended but at the same time it's a good thing for the upcoming fics ! Because like I said it's only a tiny part of what made us fall for them so hard and we won't stop following Van and Jake and we're not out of the fandom just yet.
But you're right, that year of extreme fannishness went by like a blur and it was a really good one. I wouldn't change it for the world (well I would change the triangle storyline for the better but hey).
You're welcome darling, thank *you* for letting me drag you in it because I don't how I would have cope without someone else to squee that hard with.