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Hahaha it's been almost a year since my last icon batch. I guess those sweet last scenes between the boys inspired me. TRY AND TELL ME THEY'RE NOT STILL IN LOVE WITH EACH OTHER. JUST TRY.

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It finally hit me last night, I went to bed and started crying.

In a few hours, Luke and Noah will be onscreen together for the last time.

I didn't even realize how much it affected me until last night. It's not the show ending, I couldn't care less about that badly written mess of a show and I never really fell for it, it's seing a part of what made those characters gone forever. It's not even really over, at all. The show is just a tiny portion of what makes Luke and Noah to me.

The thing is, I only got into them a little less than a year ago but they've become such an important part of my life that I feel like I've been in this fandom for years and years. 2010 has been a really awful year irl for me and I really had two things to hold on to, my friends and this. It was literally my happy place. And yes, I know it's been a tough year for the Nuke fandom as well with the way the pairing was treated onscreen and the endless wank, but it never weakened the positive effect Luke and Noah had on my life. Which proves that the show is not that important in itself.

However, it's still thanks to it that I discovered Luke and Noah in the first place (well Andy's channel, eh) so in that respect it's hard to let go. When I started watching it, I fell almost instantly in love with one Luke Snyder, I loved him so much that I went back and watched all of his story before Noah came into the picture (I'm doing that again right now). My love for Noah matured, it wasn't love at first sight, like it had been with Luke but in the end it became just as strong. I wasn't gripped by the ridiculous plots or the fake looking sets, of course, what really made me fall so hard for them was Van and Jake's brilliant portrayal and incredible chemistry, it's what really makes Luke and Noah real for me and how I became so invested in their story.

Van Hansis and Jake Silbermann have such a special place in my heart. I have admired and squeed over countless of actors over the years, but my love for those two is somewhat completely different. I can't really explain it. Of course, I do admire them for what they do but it goes beyond that. I think it's partly due to the way they are so close to their fanbase. It's the way they are so accessible and seem so genuine with us. They are fantastic human beings and I feel blessed to have been lucky enough to meet them this year. I will go on supporting them and following their careers well after the show's over.

What I will mourn after today's episode is not seing them play those characters ever again.

The characters will live on thanks to the fandom. For one thing, the amazing stories written in this fandom are also, if not more, responsible for my obsession with the pairing and they're just so good at improving and fixing every single problem the show had. Like the way Noah was never really allowed to be a character in his own right. I love how the fandom took what was given in canon and really ran with it, really made him as complex and interesting as he deserved to be all along.

Incredible authors such as Ella, Rachel and Robin are the reason why I know that these characters are in safe hands (actually, in safer hands than with the sucky writers of the show) so I couldn't be less worried about Luke and Noah's future.


It's so not over. I'll probably be a mess after today's episode but I know that I still have many many things to look forward to.


I will end with Yael's amazing fanvid which made us all bawl our eyes out yesterday :

What was best.


We'll get through this, guys *group hug with my dear nukies*

Happy Birthday teenytinyghosty ! I love that we're one day apart <3

Hope you had a wonderful day and tons of gifts darling *hugs*


On to the memes ! OMG it's been aaaaaaages *is so bad at this*

Catching up. A lot.

Doctor Who meme

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Nuke meme

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Doctor Who meme

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Day 15 - Favorite Who-related tumblr

I can't decide between :

Fuck Yeah Matt Smith's Stupid face
Fuck Yeah Hipsters on Space
Fuck Yeah David Tent

The more retarded the better, like the best tumblr I follow, basically.


Nuke meme

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Day 15 - Favorite Nuke picture (from the ATWT set)

GOSH. TRY TO ASK ME SOMETHING HARDER, I DARE YOU.

I... Here's one I LOVE.




So I caved and watched ATWT yesterday, I probably won't be able to not watch when Noah is on anyway (meaning 2 eps left).

I cried my eyes out but it was WAY better than what I feared. I didn't realise how much I missed Van and Jake's chemistry and it was on in this, ON. LIKE. FIRE.

Boys are so fucking in love still, it broke my heart. Noah asking him to come to L.A. and telling him how he tortured himself with thoughts of him killed me. The line "when I was blind I was so scared I'd never see you again. Now I'm..." and the cheek stroking (no it's not a Reid thing ok ?! Noah has 2.5 years on him in the cheek stroking department) and the fact that he had to leave before he finished saying it because he was about to break down. (I cried so hard)
Luke is denying his true feelings and settling for an easier relationship. The way he reacted to Noah spoke volume.The flirty playfulness at the start. How he *wanted* that hug/kiss goodbye. The way he said there will never be anyone like Noah in his life ever again. How he didn't hear his phone ringing and how he never took his eyes off Noah while he was talking to Reid on the phone. His shaky sigh when Noah left.

MY BOYS STILL LOVE EACH OTHER. NOBODY CAN CONVINCE ME OTHERWISE.

This is why, even if I'm still pissed that we only get two Nuke episodes left (won't bother to watch the rest of the Lure stuff anyway), I kinda think now that they *could* pull off a correct ending for Luke and Noah on the basis that even if they have to work things out, to me they clearly are still so in love with each other.

Also, Chreid FOREVER (and they will be :D).



ALSO ALSO HOW FUCKING AWESOME IS JAKE POSTING AN ARCADE FIRE SONG ON HIS FACEBOOK JUST NOW ? QUITE. AND MY MASSIVE ARCADE FIRE FANGIRLY HEART IS DOING BACKFLIPS.

Vincent and The Doctor was completely brilliant y/y ? It may be my new favourite of the season (and my fave historical ep from all of new who).
Kudos Richard Curtis, Tony Curran and Bill Nighy (for the most awesome cameo ever !). I loved the emphasis on the character's feelings and the continuity with the terrible, soulcrushing thing that happened at the end of the previous episode * LE SIGH*
It had the right amount of darkness, lolz, sadness and sweet moments. I was incredibly moved by it and as a former art student and lover, felt really connected to the story.

This series is simply amazing. I haven't felt so in love with Doctor Who since series 3 (which was the best dw series up until now for me. Unpopular as it may be. Well, less unpopular than series 2 hahaha.).


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Let's talk about my two gorgeous, amazing, awesomely talented and busy Favorite Boys of All Time.

Van got a part in a stylish, creepy looking independent horror movie called Occupant.



And then he proceeded to do a tiny itw about it to KILL EVERYONE WITH HIS GORGEOUSNESS.



His hotness should be forbidden, for safety issues and stuff.

As for Jake... OH BOY. Well he's turning into a fine badass mofo tattooed all over to play a dealer in his short film Stuffer. And. Hum. ARE THEY BOTH TRYING TO KILL THEIR FANS ? Coz I've choked on my own drool by that point. That's not on.



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My interest for this project just went through the roof. Be still my shallow heart.


Most importantly, I'm meeting these american gods in like, 32 days for the Nuke in Paris event. I DON'T THINK I'M READY. I TRY NOT TO THINK ABOUT IT OR MY HEAD WILL EXPLODE.


Tomorrow in ATWT, THIS HAPPENS :






I mean. ILU Reid but come on ! YOU HAD IT COMING. And now I just can't stop watching Noah punching your face over and over and over again. Also, Luke's face is all "oh well, I guess this was coming" which is LOLERSKATES.

In other news I got mah darling fairy_bliss to fall hardcore for Johnny Weir, which makes me INSANELY HAPPY. WE HAVE THE BEST TASTE, TRUFAX. Shutup.